when we were babies my dad was a stay-at-home dad while my mom kicked ass in the courtroom but he would carry my twin brother and me around with one baby on the front and one on his back in backpacks
and women would come up and look at how cute i was and coo over me and be like “awww how cute wow”
and my dad would be like, “YOU KNOW WHAT’S CUTER THAN ONE BABY”
and then he’d spin around
there was my brother
I love everything about this.
I’ve been having a rough time lately trying to balance work and school and being a good mom and still taking care of myself.
I’ve been in a bit of an emotional rut and I’m trying very hard to keep myself together, but I’ve been sleepy lately and that’s my big depression tell so I’ve been fighting the shit out of sleep which means I’m crabby cause I’m tired and so it’s harder to be patient with Liam when he starts being crazy. But even when I should take a nap I feel guilty for not spending that time with Liam when I’m gone so much lately anyway.
Taking deep breaths and making myself go out and about more with Liam and trying to get over my meeting other moms anxiety because I’ve always gotten along with men better but now guys are all thirsty as shit and I don’t need that in my life. Every guy is all “is your son’s dad in his life?” Like he’s just waiting for me to complain about a deadbeat baby daddy so he can act like he wants to be a daddy and do better and I’m like “yeah actually we’re still together we live together and have been together going on three years” and you can just see them like, internally walk away. Because apparently I’m only girlfriend material instead of friend material. Which is why I enjoyed hanging out with Ethan and his son so much because he has literally zero interest in me romantically or sexually so we can just be normal ass people who want to hang out with the kids.
Rant over there…
Anyway. Super stressed. Can’t wait for Bekka and Kai to be here in 6 days so I can just enjoy ten days of having a friend who isn’t too busy to hang out. Plus we’re gonna get drunk and have a night out at least once lol I needs it.
Sorry for the long personal blowout. I needed it.